| October 19, 2009 |
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I got an email from my guidance cousilor concerning my senior community service hours. It was about a volunteer oportunity at Redwood Rehab center, right down my street. I'm going to call and try to get some hours to volunteer there. I'm going to be helping kids (pre-school and toddler years) who have multiple and/or severe disabilities prepare for kindergarten. Even after I get all my senior community service hours, I think I will still want to volunteer at Redwood. I had no idea they had volunteer opportunities.
My mom got into another car wreck on Houston. She said some lady driving a Yukon couldn't control her car, and hit her while my mom was trying to get away from it. The Yukon knocked my mom's car into another car, and all three were totalled. My mom had to go to the hospital, and still can't walk even though that was a probably a week or so ago. She has stitches in her nose that make her look really goofy and she's been staying in a hotel because she can't get up our stairs. I don't know when she'll be able to come back home. I've had the house to myself since the night before her accident. What sucks the most is that she just started her new job the day she got hit. We're suing the lady in the Yukon, who walked away from the wreck completely unharmed.
I went to the Renaissance festival yesterday. It was awesome!! I wanted to buy a really big sword, and learn how to use it, but when would I ever find the time? I was also going to buy a really cut 16th century outfit, but they didn't have my dress size. I'm just going to look online for one, and dress up next year. :D Watching the jousting was my favourite. :D I bought an incense burner of a gargoyle, where the incense smoke comes out of his nose! I bought 20 small cones and 10 big cones of really good smelling incense. I fell asleep on the car ride home.
Lily has a hernia, and her doctor told me that it's common in kids under four because they have no muscle control. The hole is about a fingertip deep, and it should be getting smaller. She said it won't need to be repaired unless it gets bigger, turns purple, hurts her, or doesn't go away after she is four years old. She said the blue that was coming out of her large outtie belly button was her intestines. That makes me gag. She said to just keep pushing her belly button back in, blech.
I'm obsessed with the show 'It's Always Sunny in Philidelphia'. It's the new 'Office' for me haha. Jimmy bought the first and second seasons and they're funny. I've been DVRing other episodes on FX for when I can't catch them. :) Nip/Tuck has come back on, also. I'm DVRing those, too.
I finished my French test in the computer lab, and I'm about to leave this period. Hizzah. I can't wait to pick up our Halloween costumes! :D
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| October 12, 2009 |
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I went to go see Zombieland at the levee with Jimmy on the Friday it came out and it was awesome. :D I want to go see it again.
I watched Tropic Thunder the other night and really liked it except Jack Black (my future husband) really kinda sucked in it, excluding the part where he's in nothin' but his undies. :D
I'm excited for Final Fantasty XIII to come out, but not so excited about the new Final Fantasty Crystal Chronicles. I don't think it will be worth buying. I've been playing Devil May Cry I again, and I forgot how much I enjoyed it. I think I will re-play all of the others as well.
Friday will be the end of the first quarter of school. I've worked pretty hard and I expect to get mostly all A's. I have college stuff to do this week and financial aid to take care of. I don't know if my mom will be able to claim me on her taxes this year because according to college, I'm considered an independent and if she claims me I probably won't get as much money for college.
I'm going to the Renaissance festival this weekend! I'm so excited for it! It's so neat.
I'm filling my new Abbey Road journal completely. I love when you can see the dents of writing on every page. I'm doing some sketching also. :D
I'm reading A Game of Thrones again. Last Saturday, a guy named Andy came over to Jimmy's to play beer pong with the boys, and I had no idea that he read the Song of Ice and Fire series or knew William (he works with him). It was funny to talk about it with him, because I never really have much in common with Jimmy's friends. :D I told him he should learn to play the card game, and come play with me! :D
I bought Lily some new winter clothes. She has a cute plaid pink and grey jacket from Babies R Us, and Jimmy bought some shoes he thought were cute and a turtle bouncy thing. We went in to exchange her rainbow shoes for a size bigger, but they didn't have the size we wanted so we just got the biggest size that she'll be able to wear eventually. I'm going to buy her some Puma's too. :) They're adorable.
I drove today and did an awesome job. :)
I want to work at Blockbuster.
I'm going to work out. I'm going to do my p90x ab ripper work out tonight. :D
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| September 29, 2009 |
[29 Sep 2009|05:28pm] |
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I got into a car wreck today. Lily is fine. I'm lucky my mom stopped, and my door got hit instead of Lily's. I'm sore. Adam (from work) was at McDonald's and ran over to help me out. He's a good friend.
It made me think about my driving when I drove up to Remke's. I forgot my turn signal when I turned out of my apartment complex, and then put on the wrong turn signal when I was turning into Remke's. I drove to WalMart last week and did everything perfectly. I even remembered my emergency brake. I don't know what I was thinking today. I was totally off. I'm disappointed.
We got hit coming from Borders and going past McDonald's on Dixie. I bought Lily a sticker book.
I'm applying for a new job at Blockbuster. They're hiring and it's my new favourite place.
I'm probably going to take back Beatles Rock Band because I hardly ever get to play it. I've at least gotten to Abbey Road.
I'm going to the Renaissance festival next weekend, and I want to go to Land of Illusions with some people at work.
I wrote a story in French that Madame used for our class today. She wants to make a whole unit based on it.
I don't feel good. That's all I have to say.
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| I want to be a paperback writer. |
[13 Sep 2009|06:46pm] |
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I love playing Beatles Rock Band naked.
I love Steak n Shake.
Jimmy bought the Golden Compass game for me. :)
I want to go see "9". I will soon definitely.
I asked my uncle to do my senior pictures and he's very ecstatic. It's so funny how excited he is. He texted me twice at school saying "We need to get them done!", "The leaves are so pretty in fall, and they make awesome backgrounds!"
He asked me if I had or was getting a class ring. I told him nah and my aunt said she wanted to take me on Tuesday to get one. I'm really surprised and happy about that. She said it was my graduation present. :) I'm very excited. It wasn't that big of a deal to me before, but now I'm so excited.
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| Take it or leave it. |
[07 Sep 2009|08:15pm] |
If I'm sitting by myself and listening to my iPod and writing or reading-- Go away. I don't want to talk, I won't think it's cute if you pester me and I will probably continue what I'm doing while ignoring you until you feel like a big enough douche bag to walk away.
If I'm writing or drawing-- Don't look over my shoulder and ask to read or see what I'm doing. I get super pissed off. If I want to show you, I'll show you when I'm ready.
If you ask my "what's wrong?" and I say something along the lines of "I don't want to talk about it", bottom line: I don't want to talk about it. Helpful tip: Start a conversation to keep my mind off the subject of what's bothering me, or continue the conversation I will start to change the subject of what's bothering me. I'll tell you when I'm ready, or I'll get over.
I get irritated easily. I sigh really loud, clear my throat annoyingly, shake my head and roll my eyes when/if you're doing something that gets on my nerves. Take the hint and stop. Seriously.
Play the "I told you so" or the "I think you're wrong and I don't respect your decisions" game with me and I'll never tell you anything (and might not even speak to you) ever again.
Tamantha and I were thinking about stuff like that earlier. We both wrote blogs. :D
I've realized that I've turned into someone that I really don't like.
I'm especially disappointed about my academics last year that landed me in Landscaping (I had to freaking pull weeds and lay mulch in this class-- Mr. Butler actually brought in gardening gloves for me because "I didn't want to get your dainty little hands dirty, Ms. Rhodes") instead of Physics this year. I'm thinking about pre-med next year at Thomas More, instead of NKU but then again I don't know much about NKU and if they have any pre-med courses there. I really do love NKU. Winter time at NKU is beautiful. I found my striped scarf I wore there last winter. It smells good.
I went to a bunch of sales today. I bought black raspberry vanilla lotion and shower gel along with some whipped vanilla lip gloss at Bath and Body Works. Lily helped me pick it out. I let her smell my hand, and she loved it. I went to Starbucks and Victoria's Secret.
Jimmy's friend gave my his card, because he works at Kerry Volkswagon, and he said he could sell me a Beetle Convertable there. A BEETLE CONVERTABLE! It's everything I've ever dreamed of. I took shots of pink lemonade vodka prior to us talking about it so I don't remember this part quite correctly but there's something about it comes with flowers? I don't really know what that means but it sounds really neat. I like flowers.
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| September 2, 2009 |
[02 Sep 2009|03:38pm] |
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Munchkins with Jennica, Chad and Skylar was fantastic. I almost won! :) I needed help from Jennica to help me defeat Tequilla Mockingbird monster cause I only had two levels to defeat him.
I love being back in school, except my Chemistry class. There are seriously some losers in there. They're really dumb, and don't pay attention and throw things over my head. It's super annoying. I love my French class. I got to write a story today in my composition book called "Le Hippie Parasseux", which translates to "The Lazy Hippie". It's about a hippie who loves an athlete. He goes to run a marathon at Woodstock to impress her, but he falls asleep instead. The athlete laughs at him and calls him stupid and lazy. Haha, it was a lot of fun. I got to draw pictures for it, too.
I went shopping and spent $69.97. I love these jeans I'm wearing, except for some reason my zipper always comes down haha.
Homecoming is the 12th. I don't know if I'm going to go. Maybe I'll go to Dixie's.
Jennica said she would work on getting me trained to be a "Beverage Specialist" at work. :) You get to wear an awesome name tag and train people on how to use the espresso machine.
Lily has MRSA, and they said her Staph infections will keep coming back until she's potty trained. They said there is the germ/bacteria on her skin and when her eczema dries and cracks her skin the Staph gets inside it and is sealed into her diaper. So, yeah. Lame. We're working on getting her potty trained, and it's really hard.
On Demand writing is coming up. I love writing so much in English. We worked on our Senior On Demand video today in the auditorium. Our song for the video is "Beat It" because we're going to beat On Demand ha. I heard that Mrs. Setters is going to dress up as Michael Jackson.
I'm getting my senior pictures done soon. I've already come up with some ideas because I'm having a friend of mine take them, and I'm paying her. They're going to turn out fantastic! I will post them. :D
Oh yeah, I'm also moving.
Flaming Lips concert soon!!! :D I can't wait to see Jeff.
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| August 15, 2009 |
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I really want to play Munchkins tonight with Skylar, Jen and Jennica. :)
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| I'm still frustrated from last night... |
[14 Aug 2009|03:28pm] |
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Last night I was supposed to go to my aunts for dinner because my great aunt and uncle were visiting here.
My "mom" came in and said, "bring enough diapers for the night in case I can't drive home".
Are you fucking serious? Where is Lilly supposed to sleep? On the floor? All because you're a fucking alcoholic and want to drink?
Uhm, no. We're staying here.
(This is where it gets funny).
"Fine. Me and Lilly will go."
"You plan on getting so drunk that you can't drive home, and you really think I'll let you take my kid? I can't ask you to watch her while I take a shower for fifteen minutes without having to get out because you let her eat make up."
At one point, she even tried to pick Lilly up and put her in her car seat. Of course, being one, Lilly ran away.
She stormed out the door, furiously. I ate a sammich, and went to Jimmy's.
She has to be the stupidest woman in the entire world, and apparently she started smoking again, too.
I hope she chokes.
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[19 Mar 2009|03:29pm] |
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My grandma died.
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Today I put a teeny tiny piece of bread from my peanut butter sandwish into Lilly's mouth to see if she would know to swallow it. Needless to say, she didn't and it sat on her tongue while I encouraged her to swallow it until I gave up and took it out. She seemed so confused but smiled when I opened her mouth to put it on there. It was cute. She's my best friend. Since she's doubled her birth weight and is almost six months old, I can start giving her solids soon which is what I'm very excited about.
Last Sunday, Alex (nutopiapeace), myself and some of his friends filmed 'The Visitor: 2' at NKU. Haha, I had a great time! I really want to film more stuff. It was so much fun! I have pics and vids on my digital camera that I'll upload via Myspace that you can look at. If you wanna watch the first Visitor, go to www.youtube.com/nutopiapeace. Be sure to check out the Forward Express and other videos that Alex has made. They're hilarious. Word on the street is the filming will be wrapping up this weekend. Hizzah.
On a sadder note (boo), I transferred to Simon Kenton High School this school year. I hate it with the fires of a thousand burning hells, on the for real. Everyone is either "I listen to Tim McGraw when I drive my tractor to school" or "I'm a gangster kid that lives on a farm, and I don't do my homework". If you know me at all, it would be obvious to say I just don't fit in. I miss Dixie, I miss the indivuality that most of everyone there possessed, and how I got along with everyone I knew or met. I miss my friends, I miss Christopher, Carissa, Lydia, Molly, Ben, Luke, EVERYONE. I'm making arrangements to apply for a job at 'A Child's World' day care where my friend Brittany works there (and her daughter goes to the daycare), and going back to Dixie but first I think I'm going to call the daycare next to my house and see if they're hiring or if they have room for Lilly there, and if everything goes well, both. The other day, I had a tiny hole in my pants, and was scolded because "holes above the knee are prohibited". You can't be serious. It was a fashionable little hole, and it wasn't big at all. Whatever, that's stupid. Get me out.
I saw Christopher yesterday and we went shopping. We got to talk and it was fantastic. Now that I don't see him every single day like I used to, I really regret being so mean to him and cutting off ties just for him singing at the table and it got on my nerves. We sang Cute Is What We Aim For yesterday. :) "I may be ugly, but they sure love to stare."
Lilly's bedset is ordered and will be arriving sometime this week. I fell in love with a Bananafish Lennon/McCartney 'All you Need is Love' bedset and just absolutely had to get it. It's adorable, and I will most certainly post pictures.
I saw Jeff and Allison today at Remke when I was buying brownie making supplies. Haha, I was paying and when I looked up I saw them and was completely stunned. All I could say was, "oh my God, what are you doing here?" haha, it totally took me off guard. We talked for a little bit, and it was the first time that I had formally been introduced to Allison. It was terrific. I can't wait to get together with him and maybe even her, if she's up for it, and talk and hang out and what not. Brilliant.
Saturday (I hope Amy is there), I'm going to put my two weeks in and pick up applications elsewhere. I've been hearing word of these new (mostly fifteen year olds) starting off making $7/hr when I'm still making $6.55/hr and I've been there for a year and a half. It's bullshit. And also, after taking into consideration that I do not want to spend the rest of my life in fast food, I'm putting my two weeks in Saturday. I'm so proud of myself.
I have to go the doctor on Saturday morning because I have some strange, bizarre lump growing back there, that's actually been moving from different places. I've also been having bad headaches, and neck pain, so I should probably get that checked out. My guess is it's probably from stress (because I'm extremely stressed out), a benign mutant growth, or cancer (God forbid). It's really freaky, I hate touching it, and it disgusts me. I hope don't die, haha.
My goals for le mois of Septembre are:
Get down writing ideas on ein stuck Papier
Keep my room clean for a decent amount of time (this would mean I actually have to clean my room first, ugh)
Keep my homework on lockdown
Get a new job
Quit McDonalds
Plan out transferring back to Dixie more clearly and do it!
Stop eating junk
Work out
Help people that need it because I want to, even if there is nothing in it for me
Finish all the books I've been reading
Practice my French, even though I don't like it as much as Deutsch, I'm glad to be learning a new language
Start Lilly on baby cereals
Get my driving permit
Get my tattoo done
Not to let little things bother me as much, and when things do bother me, not to act out of anger, hurt, etc.
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[12 Feb 2008|05:51pm] |
I've only gained about 38 pounds in my face, butt and stomach (of course), so it shouldn't be that hard to lose the baby weight. I have a new talent of being able to down half of a huge jug of apple juice in like...40 seconds. :)
I don't know how much I've posted about it, but I'm having a girl and I'm naming her Lilly. I'm ready.
Any week now. I bought some coloured pencils so I can colour while in labor. I hear it lasts anywhere from 18 to 24 hours for a first timer.
We have exams tomorrow, and the third trimester starts on Wednesday. I have Mrs. Roberts twice in a row (fuck) and then Mrs. Neiport. I'll be missing out on their classes for a good six weeks, so I'll get a break. I think I did really well on my German, Family Science and Geometry exams.
Davina and Davona are moving to the Dixie district. I'm actually really excited to see them, and they're coming here March 1st (very soon!!). I'm glad they're getting out of Grant Co. It's like a black hole of people killing themselves and starting gangs called Grant Co. Mafia. Who do they think they are?
Any minute now, I'll probably have some freshman in brass knuckles banging on my door with a double barrell shot gun, yep...just my luck.
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| Mr. Ambulance Driver |
[02 Oct 2007|03:56pm] |
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Waiting for the ambulance to come
Hoping that it doesn't come too late
Hearing the sirens in the distance
Hold on, help is on the way
Mr. Ambulance Driver
I'm right here beside her
Though I'll live somehow I've found
Mr. Ambulance Driver
I'm not a real survivor
Wishing that I was the one
That wasn't going to be here anymore
The one that isn't here anymore
The one that isn't here anymore
Oh, we can't trade places
Our lives our strangely all alone
Mr. Ambulance Driver
Tell me for everyone that dies
Someone new is born
Mr. Ambulance Driver
I'm right here beside her
And though I'll live somehow I've found
Mr. Ambulance Driver
I'm not a real survivor
Because I'm wishing that I was the one
That wasn't going to be here anymore
Mr. Ambulance Driver
I'm right here beside her
And though I'll live somehow I've found
Mr. Ambulance Driver
I'm not a real survivor
Because I'm wishing that I was the one
That wasn't going to be here anymore
The one that isn't here anymore
The one that isn't here anymore
(Waiting for the ambulance to come, who who whooo)
(Waiting for the ambulance to come, who who whooo)
Mr. Ambulance Driver
I love that song. The Flaming Lips are love.
A lot of different things have happened.
I've pretty much accepted that Jimmy will never be the same. He's turned into a real jerk, and that really hurts me. I've accepted that I'm only looking for that old side of him, and that I'll probably never find it or whatever it was we had.
Henley has been contemplating re-establishing a relationship with William again, as I have for about every single day of my life since we fell out of place. She, unlike myself, has actually worked up the balls to at least confront Leo and ask his advice. Leo said that William was "at a point in his life where he probably wouldn't shut you out". That's comforting, but I don't know if that goes for me as well. I'd love to ask Leo, but I'm weary of re-opening that whole chapter when everything seemed so completely finished and almost whole again after our terrible falling out.
I want my brother back, but I'm not sure if I can face him and tell him. Why restart that never ending circle?
Even more complicated, is that I'm too stubborn and full of pride to apologize when I most definitely know I was right!
Ugh.
Saturday just doesn't seem to be close enough. I can't wait to go to Rocky with Lydia, Christopher and this weekend, Carissa. My Columbia costume comes in soon, and I'm going to buy some gold underwear to run around in. :D I might see Crim Jim at the Con in November, although I won't have the whole experience of staying in the hotel...since I live right down the street and that obviously wouldn't sound reasonable to my mother. Hmph. I'm bummed I missed Rocky last show when Brontosaurus Clitoris was there. I heard the show was killer, but they don't have pictures up yet.
I'd also like to go to Fear Fest sometime. Oh yeah...and the zoo. To be like Barbie...and touch a monkey. :D
I've started a completely different journal, inspired by the book I've been reading. It's my, "Living on purpose" journal.
I want to make a goal of finding something to do after school, instead of sleeping. I don't know why I'm so tired all the time!
I have to write a speech. Bye bye.
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[11 Sep 2007|03:43pm] |
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Since when does it take four fucking days to write a damn letter? Never. It doesn't. It won't.
This is ridiculous, by the time we're able to write the first draft, the whole controversy involving the issue will be over and something will have already been done about it.
Like I don't know how to write a business letter? Block format, woman. Block format.
I signed up for English class, not rocket science.
If it weren't for VPAM, I would immediately switch out of your class because you don't seem to know what you're doing.
Thank you for telling me how much you appreciate me in your class (on every single paper I've written this year) but it would make me smile if you wouldn't suck as a teacher, for once.
Whatever.
Saturday night Lydia, Christopher and I went to Rocky again. This show was ten times more eventful for us, especially me since I was no longer a Rocky virgin and didn't have to give myself over. It was more of a choice. There are some pictures up on the website, of Christopher in his underwear up in the virgin line next to us. Crim held up a sign that said, "Drop your pants for charity" and Christopher couldn't resist a chance to drop his. Awkward? I think yes.
This show, made my life complete. I was hugged by Mothball, and was in the seat right next to Christopher (before his pants came down) when he was getting a lap dance from Riff (played by Mothball this week).
Matt didn't play Rocky this week, but he climbed all over me and Lydia.
Two weeks from now, Brontosaurus Clitoris will be making an appearance. I'm super excited, but Lydia got grounded for the next two weeks. :( So she won't be going, and I don't think I will either. It simply won't be the same.
I bought my homecoming dress last Saturday. Its dark purple, and it flows.
You can hardly see the sparkly bullshit thing in the middle. I'm not a fan of sparkly bullshit things.
Homecoming's Saturday. Fun? Probably not.
Dave (my favourite manager) came back into work at Buttermilk. He was supposed to be transferring to...somewhere...but he came back. :) And that makes me a happy camper.
Also, the past two days in my Lit & Film class, we've been watching 'ET'. ET actually terrifies me, but I had never seen the whole movie through. It was actually quite cute. I loved the part where its Halloween and ET keeps trying to stick his finger up to the older brothers head to heal the knife wound, but the wound was fake. It was super cute. And the Reese Pieces!! He gave Elliot some Reese pieces to share. :) I've actually felt a little affection for that alien, even though he's kinda scary when he makes "monsterbating" noises.
I have German to do.
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| Dixie Game Tonight. |
[07 Sep 2007|11:04pm] |
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Dixie won by a lot.
Cov Cath sucks. =)
Dixie colonels wear red,
Cov Coth colonels give head.
I watched the marching Colonels in their half- time performance.
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Blimey. I have a ginormous spot on the right side of my face.
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Word, son.
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